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Song Studies I (July 2022​)​: and i wanna know who else is in on it

by Feel Loudly

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1.
Cosmic Joke 02:20
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It's a cosmic joke And I wanna know Who else is in on it? It's a cosmic joke And I know, oh I know We're all a part of it Send out a signal, show me a sign Call out a name, throw me a line Ha ha ha ha These babies laughing and I know Yeah, they're in on it Chill fish swimming past his friends We all know they're so in on it Tiny black beetles crawling through the cracks Oh yeah, they're in on it Oak tree standing strong Must feel so loud to be so in on it Yeah to be so...
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E-girl Robespierre 02:55
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No recollection of March through May But I know we were here via our streaming history So let's start printing it out and carve memes into brick So there'll be evidence of us beyond our cosmic imprints While right now we're circling and spiraling and running out of steam Fractals caught in our mazes and running out of steam So we'll live in our pods and eat our bugs But they'll be gluten free and taste like Chick-fil-A sauce And we'll lament no one's murdered Clarence Thomas yet And how it means our society's got no juice left As we crave some e-girl Robespierre Kickstarting our Space Gulag With her OnlyFans and her bright blue hair As we talk about love Yeah we'll talk about anything at all And everything beyond our walls And we'll talk on by And pretend like it's not everything And pretend like it's authentic me And pretend that I ain't scared And pretend that it ain't worth a thing Oh it ain't worth a thing But we're here, and I know That I've finally found the cost of alienating my soul Far beyond where I'd go We'll sing "get those eyes away from me" Oh, get those words away from me tonight Away from me tonight Away from me tonight Wait for me tonight
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Now we're speaking different languages 02:30
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Sit back now silently Just listening to the near misses Ball one, ball two, foul ball, and you Find my eyes from across the room Sending out our signals Crucibles and dogwhistles Shibboleths from enchantresses On walkie channel IV fixes Woah, yeah we're never going back again Now we're speaking different languages Genie out the bottle Now he's glued down to your couch Inhaling bong rips, eating pop tarts Throwing up right in your open mouth And you try to scheme him back inside Like a massive flying cockroach Rolled up magazines and broom bristles Cup and paper Rube Goldbergs Woah, yeah we're never going back again Now we're speaking different languages Oh will you ever hold down a job again? Oh will you ever make any more friends? Oh will you ever let your mind relax and Find a sense of satisfaction? Woah, yeah we're never going back again Now we're speaking different languages
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Feels like god's been watching 03:05
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Feel it down in the back of my skull Feel it tapping open, like we've now begun Feel it down in the back of my skull Oh it feels like god's been watching Feel it down in the top of my lungs Mixing with the saltwater and drops of Kiehl's musk Feel it down in the top of my lungs Like I'm going nowhere, and somewhere, and everywhere fast now We're gonna find something to say and to show For every single day that passes by from now on Gonna make new art; throw it around Inverting our speech in ways we'll keep finding out Gonna find out But let's leave things open ended Feel it down in the pit of my gut Bus ride home from school after I know I fucked up Yeah I feel it down in the pit of my gut But feels like I know it will end Oh I know it will end, yeah Feel it flying through the halls Feeling the drop; trusting the thrust up Feel it flying through the halls When I'm going, I'm gone and you won't find me I'm gone
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As we find ourselves clawing against the wall 02:24
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Wait for the smile break We must be joking You gotta know this is a joke Oh wait, it's not, oh no So feed me that company line I'm so hungry, please say it one more time Feed me that company line Oh when is art? Not here, no not this time As we find ourselves clawing against the wall Just think of the room Just think of the room Just think about people We're all just people But you'll be long gone Probably never stepping foot in Run these analytics and get more cutthroat for the next one This stupid fucking joke As we find ourselves clawing against the wall Sanding down our fingertips On gentrifying exposed brick How will you classify this? Who gives a shit, you got your money As we find ourselves clawing against the wall
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Love in the Time of Algorithms (Theme 1) 01:13
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Yeah it's... Love in the time of algorithms Love in the time of myths stuck in us Love in the time of company lines Waterboarding our once open minds Love in the time of algorithms Love in the time of gross ambition Love in the time of "fuck the room" "Fuck the kids," yeah, well fuck you too We've got love

about

I've long been fascinated by the "artistic study" as a practice. I might like them more than the finished work itself. Something about seeing all of Rodin's iterations on sculpting a hand makes both the artist and the artistic process seem more human, more relatable, and more artistically nourishing. However, the study is not often employed outside the visual arts, and especially not within music...until now.

Instead of building up a collection of songs and finalizing a selection of them onto a new album, I will be publishing the drafts, intermediary versions, and steps along the way as collections of "song studies." For this first collection, most of the songs are straightforward guitar and vocal, one take recordings. This is the first batch of new songs post- new album (go listen to "Everything's amazing but then again couldn't be worse"), which is always a fun artistic time where new themes start to form. Some of these songs may make it onto future albums and receive greater production, some may be significantly altered, and some may be thrown away forever.

This collection of song studies was mostly written over the first week or two of July 2022 and recorded over a week at the end of August 2022. Everything was recorded in an East Harlem apartment, with GarageBand 5.1, on a 2009 MacBook.

The artistic development focus on these studies was how to record/mix/master more sparsely arranged songs. The album was more maximalist (within DIY GarageBand acoustic standards) and it felt really muddy and too busy at times. I also wanted to see how fast I could write and record songs. There’s something about the immediacy and irregularity of a quick single take that can make art more raw. I tried to see how allowing those imperfections to stick, instead of hitting another take or trying to scrub them clean, would feel. I also want newer songs to feel more campfire-y. These ideas of “campfire songs” and the Brechtian “singing about the end times” only came to me after the songs for the last album were already written, so I hadn’t yet had the opportunity to actualize that vision. Still, these are pretty straightforward and within my songwriting wheelhouse. I think next time I should get more inventive, especially now that I’m growing more comfortable with the artistic study medium.

At this point, I'm all about the process, baybeee. More song studies are swiftly on the way. Thanks for listening. H.A.G.S.

credits

released September 8, 2022

Nathan - music & lyrics, guitar, vocals, u-bass, beatbox, recording/mixing/mastering
Mimi - album artwork

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